I wish I was cool enough for you.
I wish I was both brand new and abused,
then maybe I could fit into your frame of view,
then maybe I would be cool enough for you.
I'll just continue to live life like I'm use to.
You can around feeling down and confused,
but I won't be there for you.
I promise I'll let you down again,
disappoint all your expectations,
I'll pull you close, just to joke,
to confirm my suspicions.
I'll deny myself every right,
just to pine for you at night.
Tell myself it's my fault,
to feel the guilt inside.
I'm sorry to have wasted your time,
I said some things but you lived the lie.
Maybe that was my downfall after all,
hiding behind walls,
reading your messages but ignoring your calls.